I WISH

That night. 
I wish it had been you.
I wish you could have been the one who pulled me on to your lap. 
I wish it would have been you who pulled me closer and whispered, “you’re gonna be with me”.
I wish it was you I waited for in the bedroom. 
But it wasn’t.
I wish I hadn’t been the one to push you away.
I wish I never locked my eyes with him. 
I wish I knew that if I choose him, I wouldn’t just be getting just fucked for a night…

I would be fucked for the rest of my life. 
I wish it had been you…

because I wouldn’t have fallen in love with you.